Hope u find what u’re looking for..

You Are The One (watch this..;D) (Tony Gonzaga & Sam Milby)

“are you okay? Hey, did you get some sleep?”

“Can you not bother me with that right now? My mind’s not there right now.”

“And where is it? With Will again?  You know what?

You really have to believe me. Sometimes, you have to give him space. He’s a man after all.  If he’s all you think about…he’ll think you’re building your life around him.

You’ll freak him out! if u keep at it, he’ll think you’re too needy and he’ll leave you..”

****

“I can’t help it. I’m worried about him.”

“Maybe he really just wants to be alone.”

“Alone. And what do you know about what’s going on with him? It’s been one week since we last saw each other.”

****

“What do you want to do? Get up! Starving yourself to death won’t change the fact that Will slept with another girl.”

“huhh..”

“Look, Melody told me about it. And as much as I hate to say this….

I think you’re overreacting!”

“What!?”

“Technically, he’s not your boyfriend.”

“You’re arguing on technicalities? What are you saying?

That i shouldn’t get mad even if i found him with another girl?! Is that it?”

“Yeah, uhmmm,no..”

“What!?”

“i mean, what Will did was wrong.”

“what is it that you really want to say?”

“okay, fine. Looks like you’re not ready to talk yet, so let’s just eat. Let’s talk after you eat, okay?

“Go! i told you i’m not hungry. Just leave me alone!”

“Sally, it’s not the end of the world. It’s your fault you were stupid enough – “

“There! Finally, you said it. I’m stupid.”

“That’s not what i meant.”

“No, don’t take it back, you just said it. i’m stupid. i’m the stupid one. i’ve accepted that. it was my mistake. i’m always at fault. i’m stupid. What?? what else do you want to hear?”

“That’s not what i said.”

“No. You just said it..”

“Look, i understand you.”

“oh please, you will never understand me!”

“Sally, i’m not the enemy here. why does your blood boil whenever i’m around? you talk to me like i’m the one who wronged you.”

“Walllahh..No, you haven’t done anything wrong! and that’s what’s wrong. You’re pretty, i’m not. you’re rich, i’m not. you’re smart, i’m not.“

“What the hell are you talking about?”

“The truth! Do you even realize how hard it is to be your sister? everyday you make me feel like my life is worth nothing. that my job is not worth anything. isn’t that the reason you want me to go to America? so, i can be mamang’s nanny! cause that’s all i’m worth.

All my life, i tried to stay away from you. cause everytime they compare us, i look so pitiful. Chary’s so good in math, why can’t you be the same? chary’s fixes herself up so well, why don’t you? chary’s a scholar, why aren’t you? chary’s this, chary’s that. But what about Sally? Nothing!

When you left two years ago, i felt a sigh of relief. look at me. i thought i was fine. i finally got out of your shadow. you’re finally far away from me. i even found myself a man who’s foolish enough to fall for me. but it’s still not enough! don’t you see? whatever i do, i’ll always lose. especially to you!”

“Listen to me.”

“I don’t care about what you have to say. “

“Listen! if i really were better, or prettier. is it my fault?? i didn’t do anything to you. you feed your own insecurities.

you’re not ugly. and you’re not stupid. you know what your problem is? you think of me as competition. even with Will, i felt that! what were you thinking? that i’d steal him away from you?

My god, Sally! is that how you see me? we are not in a contest. there’s no prize to be had. and even if there is one…. i’ll never compete with you for it. i’ll even give it up for you. because i’m on your side. because i’m your sister. and i will love you despite the way you choose to see yourself.

because isn’t that the way sisters are? did you ever think of that? you probably didn’t. cause you’re too busy comparing yourself to me. i ask you to be with me to america….not because your life here’s worthless. and not because i want you to be our mother’s anny.

Just think. the three of us are already there. would you really rather be away from the rest of your family? but if you really can’t bear being there with me…. i won’t force you.. but in case you change your mind….we’ll be waiting…”

****

“i hope you find what you’re looking for..”

“Thanks..”

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WOULD YOU RATHER LOVE SOMEONE WHO COMPLETES YOU ?

OR SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU COMPLETELY ?

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perbualan dengan kak Siti selepas dia balik menunaikan Haji.

“Lis, Lis ok? Lis tahu, sepanjang kak Siti kat sana..masa berdoa, nama Lis yang selalu terlintas, Kak Siti ingat je Lis dan doakan untuk Lis masa kat sana..kak Siti tak tahu kenapa, orang lain kak Siti tak ingat sangat tapi Lis kak Siti ingat..Kak Siti dah doakan yang terbaik untuk Lis masa kat sana…InsyaAllah..Lis sabar yaa..”

“Terima kasih kak Siti..” (i can’t hold my tears…uhhh…that’s my weakness)

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You are The One – Nice movie (Philippine)

“Sally!   You know what..  What’s wrong with you??!“

“Are you dense??  What do you mean, what’s worng with me??

What’s wrong with you!??  I know you got hurt, i respected that.

They said you needed space, so i gave you space.

you didn’t talk to me for one week.. you never called. Now This!!”

“Was i supposed to see you everyday??!”

“No.”

“Then why the hell you were so mad??!”

“Because i thought you were better than this.”

“Well, suprise.. I’m not. You should be happy though.

i’m fullfilling every awful expectation you have of americans.

You know what’s wrong with you Filipinos??!

You’re just so melodramatic!!

You’re not even my gilfriend….and you’ve expecting me to give you my soul or something.”

(she slapped him)…(then,crying…)..(silence..)

****

“Sally!!    Sally, wait!!

I don’t know if this matters at all..but i just wanted to say….. i’m leaving.”

“okay.”

“i’ll be posted in australia.”

“Good luck.”

“About what happened..”

“ohh, it’s okay, Will…you don’t need to explain.”

“But, Sally..”

“Like you said, i’m not your girlfriend. you don’t owe me an explanation.”

“It’s just that…. i couldn’t begin to explain how.. it was awful and…. i was going through a lot at the time…

and it’s just too bad that…. you had to get hurt..”

“I know. Tough luck.”

“Sally, it’s just that…. you don’t know what it’s like that your whole life…. you feel like you’re missing parts of yourself..

like you’re an incomplete person..

and you don’t know who you are..

Sally, what do i have to do to be forgiven!?”

“I don’t know. Turn into a pig?”

“You’re not even listening!!”

….

“I don’t have a heart that can love, Sally!!

I lost it when my parents gave me away.  And i’m not even sure if i can still find it.”

“huhh….You don’t have a heart??!  huhhh….You can’t find it??

You have one, Will.. Broken, Yes, But Not Missing…

You can’t find it?? Are you kidding??  I already gave you the address. why don’t you meet them? why don’t you look for them? because you refuse to face them.”

“Sally, i don’t know if i can do this again..It’s painful.”

“What happened the last time was too painful. You don’t want to make another mistake. But Will, you should have looked for them long ago. So, you woul’ve found the answer to all your questions. But you didn’t. Because it’s easier for you to blame others for all your pain.   I’m no different.

We’re both looking for reasons.  And people to blame for our unhappiness.  Reasons why we don’t deserve to be loved.

But you know what the truth is?? it’s your heart.

your heart refuses to accept the fact that whatever you are….whoever you are, you deserve to be loved.

That’s why you also refuse to love.   Enough, Will.

Stop hiding behind your excuses.  Do what you must before you hurt other people.”

****

“Sally, i need to talk to you..”

“Will?? why do you look like that!?”

“Because this is the only way that i can be forgiven. If i turn into a pig. Don’t you remember?”

“Smartees! get out of the way, i’ll be late!”

“Sally, please! I’m begging you, just wait.”

(suddenly it’s raining..)

“Even the weather disagrees.”

(all people using their umbrella to shelter them from the rain..)

“You should thank them.”

“Thank you. Thank you..”

“I’ll give you a chance. In Tagalog, okay?2 minutes.”

“I was stupid. I hurt you.. but i never meant to hurt you.”

“That was english!”

“can i at least speak in Taglish? It’s really hard.”

“Fine. Go!”

“You told me the first time, at NSO, i should come back when i’m complete.”

“mm ahhaa..”

“That’s why i’m here.  I find it hard to love a woman because how am i to give part of myself if i don’t feel complete?”

“You know i’m tired of your excuses, and now, you’ve at it again.”

“Please..Let me finish..    Sally, i don’t want to tell you that you complete me.   Cause what i want to say is this is me.  All of me.. Having you completely..

Cause that’s what you deserve.. Cause that’s how it should be when someone’s in love.  Complete.

Not because you want to be completed.  Please stay.  Because i’m staying.  it’s not because i found my family.  but because here, i’m home. i’m home with you.

I want you to know you’re the first and only girl i said i love you to.   And really mean it.  i love you, Sally.”

“What??”

“I love you, Sally!!”

****

you’re just too good to be true..

can’t take my eyes off you…

you feel like heaven to touch..

i wanna hold you so much..

as long as love has arrived..

and, thank God i’m alive..

you’re just too good to be true..

can’t take my eyes off you..

pardon the way that i stare..

there’s nothing else to compare..

the sight of you leaves me weak..

there are no words left to speak..

and if you feel like i feel..

please let me know that it’s real…

(can watch this movie in Youtube…enjoy it yaaa…)

Mr Commitment..why can’t u read my mind??

i just finished read this book “Mr Commitment”…(nice title ya??..) Actually, i didn’t plan to buy anything on that day when i and my beloved sis went to ‘Popular’ (Sunway Pyramid)…hehe….

but, heyyyy…this book is really nice la…i luv every single conversations, plots, moments, in this book..well, maybe aku terlambat sikit jumpa or baca buku ni kan..coz published 1999 if i’m not mistaken la… tapi best la..simple..”To live together. Or not to Live together. That is the question.”….menarik kan..?…

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“you just got a little scared, that’s all” “I want to do everything I can to help you. You think that i take what you do for granted, but I don’t. I know you sometimes think that i don’t think you’re funny, but you are. You make me laugh all the time – although not always intentionally. Just promise me even when we’re old and grey that you’ll keep making me laugh….”

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“For everything i know i’ve done everything wrong. I can’t believe I let you go. I loved you when i lived with you, and i think i still love you now. i wish i’d had the guts to tell you all this yesterday. or even this afternoon. when the registrar said ‘does anyone know why these two people shouldn’t be married?’..i wanted to say what i felt..if i had spoken up..would you still married him??”

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“i said, don’t go. i don’t want you to go, Mel. stay here in London and marry me. i miss you. Whatever it is that makes you different from any woman i have ever met or could ever hope to meet – the very Melness of you – i miss that more than anything. it’s just over four months since we first split up and since then a lot has happened that i need to explain to you…”

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“i want to believe you, Duffy.” “  i want to believe you more than anything in the world . i look at your face and i hear your beautiful words and i’m nealy there, Duff. but nearly just isn’t good enough any more. how do i know that you really mean what you say? How can i be sure that those old feelings won’t come back again?”

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“i don’t understand. You’ve always gone on about how well you know me. How you know me better than i know myself. And it’s true. i’ve never met anyone who knows me like you do. so why can’t you see that i’m telling you the truth when i say i want to marry you? Why can’t you read my mind?”

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“That’s just it. I don’t trust myself any more. i don’t trust myself to make a decision that will affect not just your life, or my life, but the life of our baby too. i can’t tell what it is you’re thinking because i don’t know what i’m thinking and it scares me. i love you, Duffy, but i’m too scared to gamble everything when i can’t be sure.”

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so…how do u feel???? interesting ya???…..hemmmmm…

aku tak akan cuba halang ‘mereka’ dari buat kesilapan..sebab kalau aku halang sekalipun, mereka tetap juga berkeras dengan kata hati mereka dan kedegilan pada keputusan mereka..ya sementelah pula mereka yang bertanggungjawab atas apapun tindakan yang mereka buat kan..??…bayangkan kalau aku cuba tolong..mereka tidak akan nampak ‘positif’ nya walau apepun niat aku kan…sebab mereka tak ‘rasai’ nya lagi kan…jadi aku akan biarkan mereka merasakan sedikit pengalaman ‘lemas’ mungkin…tentu aku akan selamatkan kalau aku tahu lemas tu boleh bawa pada kematian tapi aku rasa mereka hanya paling teruk pun akan koma seketika sahaja…so biarlahhhh…mereka tak akan terima kata-kata sesiapa pun saat ini walaupun datangnya dari orang2 yang mengasihi mereka kan…??…

believe me..one day u’ll realize it…hope still won’t be too late…

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tergamak ke kita nak buat or biarkan orang yang kita sayang merasa bersalah seumur hidup dia???(dengan mengimbas kesilapan pada cerita lama..believe me,..akhirnya nanti kita sendiri akan rasa bersalah bila kita berjaya dengan apa yang kita mahukan or puas hati..) tergamak ke kita nak rampas dia dari orang yang dia cintai?? tergamak ke kita nak pisahkan mereka yang saling mengasihi??(lain la kalau ‘love’ tu tak seimbang antara keduanya kan..?,,)….i’ve experienced this myself..well, i know u will say that your situation is different from mine..nahhh if the point is ‘true’, ’sincere’, ‘deep’,etc…then bet my words..it’s just d same…u can’t imagine what i’ve gone through as i couldn’t imagine what u’ve gone through too..so that’s it….huhhh…..hemmmmm…..

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I’m Giving up now..??

“I’m Not Giving Up On You…”

“Hermione, why are you trying so damn hard? Why do you want there to be an us?”

“And why are you trying so hard to keep things subdued? Why don’t you want there to be an us?”

“Maybe because I can already see the outcome.”

“Harry, listen to me!”

“Fine, Hermione. I’m all ears.”

“I love you, you idiot. Don’t you get that?” “I’ve always loved you. Ever since that day on the train, and I can see in your eyes that you love me too.”

“But what about Ron? What happened with Ron last year, then?”

“I was confused, Harry. You can’t blame me for that.”

“What if you’re confused now, and you weren’t, then?”

“I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life, Harry.”

“Hermione, I can’t. I can’t love you.”

“Tell me why.” “Tell me why, Harry James Potter.”

“I – I… I don’t want to lose you, Hermione. I would rather be your friend, and keep you safe. Then love you, and have to give you up.”

“What are you talking about?”

“If Voldemort knows that I love you, he’ll use you as bait, Hermione. He’ll kill you, or harm you, to get to me.”

“Don’t you think I deserve the right to make my own decisions? Don’t you think I’ve taken all of the risks into account? Hell, it’s a risk just being your friend, just being close to you… but I bare it, every moment of every day, because I wouldn’t have it any other way, Harry. I bare it, because I love you…”

“You may be able to bare the risk, but I wouldn’t be able to bare… losing you.”

“If you choose to give me up, now. If you choose to give up on what we have, then you’re still losing a part of me, Harry.”

“I don’t want to lose a part of you.”

“Then don’t. Give this a chance, give us a chance, Harry.”  “Don’t give up, because either way, I’m not leaving your side.” “And don’t worry, Harry. I’m not giving up on you…”

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well, i think i’m giving up now..i should actually..hahaha…

i have the ‘perfect example’ for this issue..then, why should i trying hard like *** when we actually know the ‘perfect answer’ for ‘that’.. kann??…i want to follow what my heart tells me tapi logik ke nak curah air pada bekas yang dah penuh dengan air..lagi dicurah lagi melimpah-limpah jadinya tercampak-campak ntah ke mana-mana kannn..maka sampai bila pun tak akan memberi KESAN or IMPAK..remember that??? bekas tu perlu dikosongkan terlebih dulu then baru la air yang dicurah sampai ke dasar dan tidak sia-sia kann..?..then, you can say that is your water yang membentuk that ’shape’, perfectly yours only..remember it again lady!!!

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Life is Simple! kann..??..

oppssss…aku dah siap type panjang tadi pasal ’something’ tapi aku ‘delete’ balik semua coz aku rasa kalau aku publish tadi kalau ada yang terbaca tentu akan ‘terasa’ so aku taknak la panjangkan cerita lak nanti tak pasal2 jer kannn..?…

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kenapa aku amik kisah plak? sebab kalau korang bukan sesape dalam hidup aku or stranger..takde makne aku nak amik kisah beb…tapi ada gak certain case yg aku amik kisah gak…hahahaha…

- betul tak kita akan ‘HOLD’ sesuatu tu kalau kita tak ada ‘Perfect No’ or ‘Perfect Yes’ dengan kita..betul tak???…

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nak mintak bayangkan jap ek…katakan korang suka sangat sukan lompat tinggi..memang impian korang nak jadi wakil untuk sukan lompat tinggi (x kira la sekolah ke daerah ke negeri ke negara ke kan).. hari-hari korang berlatih kan..lompat dan terus lompat..diumumkan korang tak ‘terpilih’…fine..korang tak Give up..terus mencuba lagi dan lagi..bulan berganti bulan,tahun berganti tahun, korang terus lompat dan lompat..agak-agak korang tetap akan berjaya ke terpilih sebagai wakil????

*adakah jurulatih menilai dari ‘kesugguhan’ korang????

*atau adakah jurulatih menilai dari ‘bakat’ semulajadi yang ada pada korang????

yessss kalau kita memang dilahirkan dengan punya bakat itu dan makin digilap dan terus digilap memang kita akan berjaya kannn???

tapi macam mana kalau kita tak dianugerahkan ‘bakat’ itu dan sekuat mana kita cuba tapi bukankah setiap kita telah ditentukan di mana ‘limit’ or ‘kemampuan’ kita kann??? dan Kita ‘Tahu’ kan hakikatnya..kan..??…

ok fine…if kita degil or bersemangat jugak still believe kita boleh…so try la memang takde siapa akan halang….tapi adakah kita hanya akan ’sedar’ hakikat ini bila kali ke sejuta kita melompat dan jatuh cedera patah kaki, patah tulang belakang, lebih buruk hingga hilang upaya….MASA TU KE BARU KITA AKAN SEDAR????

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Rasa-rasanya bila sampai ‘masa’ tu…siapa yang ada keliling kita???? katil lompat tinggi ke yang jadi alas kita ‘terlantar’???? jurulatih lompat tinggi ke yang suapkan kita bubur nasi?????opppsssssss sorry beb,aku cakap untuk diri sendiri jugak selain bercerita pada sesiapa yang ‘rasa’ kalau lebih kurang sama macam ni la…opppsssss…

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alamakkkk aku dah confused plak…hahahahaa…

“ Wow, this is weird,” Hermione started, not as confident as she had looked a while ago.  “I had everything I wanted to tell you already prepared, and now everything’s a mess in my head.”

” I suggest you retrace your steps and demand for an explanation.”

“So Potter fancies Granger. Well, it’s not surprising when you two could have been tied to each other by the way you act. Hell Potter, I don’t blame you. I like her myself.”

 

  “You do?”

 

“I do,” Draco admitted with a shrug.  “But I’m smart enough to know that I don’t have a chance. Heard she likes some bloke.”

 

  “She does?”

Can i Throw all that ‘things’ or should i Throw..??

seboleh-bolehnya aku nak elak tulis benda-benda yang ada bunyi2 macam ‘down’ or ‘weak’ kat sini..hemmm..arggghhh..takpe la kalau ada orang nak marah ke nak kutuk ke nak pandang serong ke tonggang terbalik ke kan..nak lari ke nak gi jauh ke nak wat so eva ke.. aku rasa nak jerit…”lantak la!!..pergi la!!..biar aku sorang2 pun takpe..at least aku masih ada mama, masih ada ayah, masih ada epi, masih ada ajis..”

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lari tajuk sket la…hehehe…aku tertengok satu episod drama ‘Mr Mama’..kebetulan episod tu tunjuk tentang ‘1st time period’..hahahaha… giler lawak aku tengok tergelak-gelak bila tengok macam mana papa dia handle bila anak perempuan dia datang bulan pertama kali..lawak giler..siap anak dia jerit panggil ayah dia ke toilet..tengok2 penuh darah dan dia tak tahu kenapa..aikkk tak belajar kat sekolah ke?? hehehe…

mungkin terkejut kot yer la 1st day kan tak tahu apa2..hehe..dah tu kelam kabut papa dia cari ‘tuala wanita’ wife dia tapi boleh plak abis kena gi beli..dah bagi kat anak dia..boleh plak anak dia tanya “macam mana nak pakai ni papa??”.. hahahahaha..mana la aku tak berdekah-dekah ketawa kat umah..hehe…

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aku terfikir macam mana la ek kalau terjadi kat my daughter (insyaAllah) nanti time aku takde plak kan..my hubby boleh ke handle ek??? ahakssssssss…. tapi harap2 aku la org pertama yg tahu bila anak aku melangkah ‘alam dewasa’ kan…kan…moment yang menarik tu..hehe….

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chop…boleh plak aku cerite kat sini ek..no hal la..nanti kalau tak, jadi kat korang kelam kabut lak kan esp lelaki la kan..hahaha… teringat lak aku dulu ek…hehehe… of course la my mom was not the first person yang tahu..biasa la aku kan lebih banyak masa dengan keluarga  sebelah ayah dulu..mama busy kerja..ayah pun stay kat JB time tu..so aku kat umah atok la kan..

cuak gak beb masa 1st time tu..nasib baik bukan hari sekolah kot..hehe..time cuti rasanya coz aku kat umah time tu..tengok2 alamak!! tapi aku kan ‘cool’ beb..hehe…terus tanya kat mak cu aku ada tak ’sanita’..haha… aku rasa time tu glamour ’sanita’ kot…”tahu tak nak pakai macam mane??” makcu tanya kat aku..hahaha…malu seyyy!!! aku geleng jer la…

lepas tu gempaq la..mak cu tunjuk ‘demo’… wooooo bukan la demo kat dia beb..tapi demo ‘atas angin’ la…hehehe…(xleh sebut..segan lak)..hahahaha…aduhhhh…time tu punya la malu tahap gaban kan kalau nak gi beli kat kedai..siap berbungkus surat khabar tu..kalau boleh nak sorokkan dalam baju terus…ahhahahaa…tapi sekarang hemmm slumber giler tayang plastic transparent pun x kisah…hehehe… lawak la bila ingat balik…

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well, aku ada jugak memori pasal topic ni yang aku rasa hemmm ‘buat aku tersenyum’….hahahaha… thanx!! to whom?? opppsssss… bahaya tulis kat sini…nanti jadi ‘isu panas’ lak…hahahahhaa….

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Falling in Love???

d 13 signs you’re falling in love

13. you can’t stay MAD at him/her for more than a minute or two.. you actually have to try HARD to stay mad..

12. you’ll read his/her IMS/SMS over and over again..

11. you’ll walk REALLY really SLOW while you’re with him/her..

10. you’ll feel SHY whenever you’re with him/her..

9. while Thinking about him/her..your heart will BEAT faster and FASTER..

8. by listening to his/her voice..you’ll SMILE for no reason..

7. while looking at him/her..you CAN’T see the other people around you..you can only see THAT person..

6. you’ll start listening to SLOW songs..

5. he/she becomes ALL you think about..

4. you’ll get high just by their SMELL

3. you’ll realize that you’re always SMILING to yourself when you think of them..

2. you’ll do ANYTHING for him/her..

1. while reading this, there was ONE PERSON on your mind the whole time..

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Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot..

who calls you back when you hang up on him..

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep..

wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you..

wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, “…that’s her”…

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just something to share..;D

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i can’t give solutions to all of life’s problems, doubts, or fears. but i can listen to you and together we search for..

i can’t change your past with all it’s heartache and pain..nor the future with its untold stories..

but i can be there now when you need me to care..

your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine..yet, i can share in your laughter..

your decisions in life are not mine to make nor to judge..i can only support you, encourage you..and help you when you ask..

…can only pray for you, talk to you, wait for you..

i can’t keep your heart from breaking and hurting..but i can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place..

I CAN’T TELL YOU WHO YOU ARE..

i can only love you and be your friend..

Love is the ability and willingness to allow those that you care for to be what they choose for themselves without any insistence that they satisfy you..

On The Way to What You Planned to Happen, Something even Better Comes Along..

thanks to you.. for teaching me how to feel.. showing me my emotions.. letting me know what’s real.. from what is not..

thanks to you.. for teaching me how to live.. putting things in perspective.. teaching me how to give.. and how to take..

and if i breakdown.. forgive me.. but it’s true.. that i’m aching with the love i feel inside.. thanks to you..

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all taken from somewhere..not my words ya…. sometimes we dunno how to put it in words but somebody did it.. actually the ‘point’ is there.. if these words touched you..so you know how the words touched me yaa..?..hahahaha…;P

Buta ke Tak nampak..??

“ko bayangkan la beb, ada ke patut dia boleh bertunang dengan lelaki lain sebelum break-off dengan aku..yer la..dengan nama pun ayu, orangnya pun ayu, siapa sangka boleh jadi macam ni..”

“beb..thanx eh..nasib baik la ada engkau time aku ‘macam ni’..

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“kek ape ni?? tak..kau tak rasa ke kau lelaki paling bodoh dalam dunia ni?!”

“kan aku dah cakap jangan masuk campur la..!”

“takde la aku ingat kek ni untuk zoe..rupanya untuk ayu!!??”

“sekarang ni kau tahu tak..zoe tu suka kat engkau!! dia buat macam-macam untuk engkau!! aku yang tak ada kena mengena ni pun boleh perasan..tapi aku tak faham la macam mana kau boleh tak perasan benda-benda macam tu!? aku tak faham la!! kau ni buta ke ape!!? “

hussin bermonolog (korang tak faham aku la..tak faham apa yang aku nak..)

–> sedutan episod Sindarella…

giler la Zoela boleh ‘BERTAHAN’ selama itu..?? wooo banyak kali dia ‘diketepikan’ n ‘dipandang sebelah mata’ beb..’dat lady’ alwiz be d 1st in hussin’s list n alwiz his priority..even ‘dat lady’ dah ’sepak’ dia ‘jatuh’..ohhh drama melayu…well, can’t blame d script coz memang dunia ‘REALITI’ memang ada berlaku macam tu kan..??

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sama la gak macam mane aku ‘menyampah’ or ‘geram’ dengan watak Natasha tu tapi boleh ke aku berani cakap yang aku tak akan bertindak ’sebodoh’ or ’sebaik’ dia macam dalam drama tu..?? ahhh korang yang kenal aku tentu tahu ’sebaik’ mane aku boleh jadi dan ’sekejam’ mane yang termampu aku buat..kan..??

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“betul la kata dia kau selfish..”

“dia 1st love aku..dan intan anak aku..salah ke aku nak jalankan tanggungjawab atas hak aku..”

“come on la..dia dah tak cintakan kau dan dia tak tunggu kau lagi..terima la hakikat tu..sebab tu aku kata kau selfish.. sebab sebenarnya EGO kau yang mengatakan ‘possible’ lagi tapi HAKIKAT nya tak mungkin berlaku dah..terima la hakikat dia tak cintakan kau lagi..”

uhuk..uhuk…–> sedutan ala-ala drama Intan Asmara..

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biasa la..ni pun selalu jadi gak realiti kan..siapa yang pernah rasa so tahu la macam mana ’sentap’ nye kan..?..1,2 hari belum tentu lagi boleh terima hakikat, even 1,2 bulan pun tak tentu lagi, malah 1,2 tahun pun tak jamin lagi…ahakssss..;P

depending on your ‘type’ and ’stage’ of ‘heart failure’… hahaha….hey, feel short of breath haa..?!.. hehe…

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**** “kau tahu tak..? walaupun kau ni tak macam perempuan-perempuan lain..tapi kau ada something special..yang aku nampak dalam diri kau tapi aku tak tahu macam mana nak explain..it’s just there… dan kalau aku diberi pilihan kedua..aku akan pilih..kau…. ok kalau kau diberi pilihan untuk pilih lelaki..lelaki macam mana yang kau pilih??.. gerenti macam aku kan..??..come on zoela..sejak kali pertama kau pandang aku..aku tahu kau suka aku..cuma malu nak mengaku ni kan..?..” woooo..come on la….lepas ko cakap camtu pada zoela…tup-tup time tu tetibe dapat ‘call’ dari ayu terus ko ‘LUPA’ dah lain semua kan…zoe kat sebelah pun ko ‘tolak’…hampehhh betulll beb…. aku rasa dah berpuluh kali zoe tu ’sakit’..’sembuh’..’sakit’..’sembuh’….makk aiii larat tu beb…. ohhh lupa lak bab c.i.n.t.a…kan..??!!..

“my heart is not near healed and I don’t know when it will get there. I’m still holding onto the past the thought of what was and what could have been.  But what happens when the only person you can think about is the one person you can’t have?  What do you do when there is someone you can’t get out of your heart?” (read this sentences from 1 blog)

so tu yang rasa nak keluarkan kat sini.. ;p

When we meet the right person to love when we’re at the right place at the right time, that’s chance. When you meet someone you’re attracted to, that’s not a choice. That’s chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there’s a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That’s also a chance.  

 

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That’s when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that’s not a chance. That’s choice. When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that’s choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that’s choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

 

I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it’s still up to you to make the choice if you’re going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mates is still a matter of choice we have to make.  

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love. BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly…”  

Beautiful ain’t it? Doesn’t it gives us something to ponder about? Whether we end up with our present loves through love, chance or choice? If it was the right chance, was it the right choice to make?

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really like this article…taken from 1 blog by equilibrium2008 …nice writing..;D

 

 

 

 

Who is actually Love Malaysia??

hemm..macam2 berita sekarang ni..aku tak pernah rasa nak tulis komen pasal politik coz dah ramai sangat yang ‘berani’ komen kan..hemm tapi akhir2 ni bercelaru gak la berita politik malaysia ni..aduhhhh macam2 hal la.. yang mana pasal A ‘fight’ naik, B buat ‘kejutan’, C ‘goyah’ sikit dah, D ‘tahan’ tak cakap banyak, E nak try ’speed racer’ la, F bab ‘cakap’ bunyi gertak tu, G nape macam dah ’slow down’ ek, ramai lagi la yang cuba ‘melangkah’.. ada yang bagus tu memang bagus la tapi ada yang sebaliknya tu hemmm letih den nak dengar/tengok..hehe…

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tapi ada sorang tu aku suka dengar dia cakap n cara pembawakan diri dia coz nampak berkarisma tu..hehe..orang lama tapi muka baru ehem-ehem…tapi dia ‘ok’ ke ‘tak’ ker tu aku tak tahu la kan coz bukan jiran sebelah umah pun even jiran pun belum tentu ‘kenal’ gak kan??? ahakssss….

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hemm tukar tajuk la….ni yang aku tertarik baca pasal S.M. Nasiruddin,25, new CEO of NAZA tu…hehe..;)… pas tu pasal Badminton Piala Thomas last week tu…yang lain aku tak tengok tapi aku just tengopk Sony Dwi Kuncoro ‘fight’ jer…ahakssss… gempaq seyyy…hehe…;D

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ok la ok la..aku pun selak gak pasal ‘cyclone Nargis’ tu..pas tu ‘Sichuan earthquake’ lagi la…syukur kan kita kat malaysia tak terkena macam tu…tapi sebab tak kena tu la agaknya orang2 kat malaysia ni ‘manja’ bangat…agaknya kalau kena la kan..sempat lagi ke nak ‘gaduh- gaduh’…aduhhhhhh…

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hemm..aku just tulis ape yang terlintas so apepun isinya kadang melibatkan aku jugak so takde pengecualian la..sesama mengingatkan tu jer…adios….;)

Terima Kasih..(layan Nmy sengalll..;P)

“nak doakan anak ni dapat jodoh lelaki yang beriman….ha beriman dan berharta.. yer la berjanggut..janggut jer tak cukup jugak kena la seimbang..”

hahahahaa….ikut hati nak gelak terguling-guling aku kat seat belakang dalam kereta tadi…hehehe…aku quote kat sini mungkin baca biasa jer tapi ‘live’ version tadi memang lawak giler la..dengan intonasi, gaya dengan ayat power…hehehe…tergelak aku dibuatnya.. ade jer la mama ngan ayah aku ni…hehe…biasa la sembang-sembang dalam kereta kan…hehe…tapi dalam hati aku tetap amin kan jugak..ahaksssssssss…;)

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masa makan roti bakar kat kluang railway station (yg asal ok) tadi..hemm..teringat time zaman aku sekolah dulu..takde la kena berebut-rebut sangat macam sekarang ni..dulu siap boleh relax2 jer aku ngan ayah makan..tak kira la time pagi or petang..tapi sekarang ni mak aiii tak menang tangan aku tengok diorang tu..hemmm..teringat gak time rehat sekolah agama darjah khas, aku ngan geng melintas landasan keretapi..hehe..bukan nak ikut jejantas..malas la leceh..hehe..dah la dengan pakai kain slumber melangkah panjat tebing landasan tu tahu jer la tinggi mane kan..ahakssss…;P

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terpandang sekolah agama tadi teringat la time sekolah situ sampai la darjah khas kan..ada beberapa nama yang teringat-ingat jer kat kepala ni..ahakssss..di mana ‘dia’ sekarang yer?? ‘dia’ buat aku teruja giler nak fight kalahkan ‘dia’ untuk rebut 1st place masa darjah 6..hehe..1 of d reason aku sayang nak ponteng kelas..haha..;P aku ingat final actually percent kitorang sama (sehati gitu..haha..) cuma markah kitorang beza 3,4 mata jer kot..hehe kira menang gak la walau tipis kan..ala, biasa la suka2 gitu jer la takde la maksud ape2 kan lagipun dia bawah aku pun..wooo ‘munakahat’ aku 100 tu…haha..obvious giler aku terror ‘bab’2 ehem2 tu kan…hahahaha…

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ala biasa la..time tu ada ’semangat’ untuk fight berkobar-kobar kan pas tu memang life time tu seronok la..so mane tak score kan..hehe..cuma aku ingat darjah khas aku memang tak suka ‘faraid’..bukan ape aku tak suka la bab2 bagi2 harta ni..so memang k.o la aku faraid kan..hehe..’hadith’ aku ikut instinct aku nak hafal n kebetulan memang tu yang keluar utk exam..fuhhh apalagi..senyum la kan..hehe..’ibadat’, ‘tauhid’ tu memang tak patut la kalau tak score kan..hehe..’adab’, ‘jenayat’, dan yg lain2 ok la..hehe..arab aku 1 percaya x?..tapi kalau tanya aku sekarang mmg hampeh la aku ni..hehe..

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kalau sape2 sekolah agama kat johor mesti ingat kan macam mana belajar guna kitab ‘muthoal badrain’.. perghhh berpinar-pinar mata nak abiskan sebaris-sebaris kan?? kalau siapa yang baru belajar jawi memang confirm tak dapat baca lagi la..coz tulisan jawi lama kan memang ‘asli’ la..nasib baik la ustaz2 dan ustazah2 ada gak bagi ringkasan..fuhh..lega sket..hehe..aku saje imbas balik ingatan time sekolah agama ni coz aku rasa macam aku dah ‘terlupa’ sikit2 kan..

terima kasih la pada kawan2 yang kadang2 ‘mengingatkan’ aku balik..

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to mr.X1: thanx coz ko selalu buat lawak sengal time kelas n selalu jadi ’sebab’ aku senyum..aku tahu la aku pernah suka ko dulu kan kot yer pun slumber jer sound depan geng ek.. “aku tahu nmy sorang jer yang tahan dengan perangai aku sebab dia suka aku..” woooo memang sengallll..tapi sayang kan ‘kisah’ kau dengan ‘dia’ berakhir dengan agak ‘tragis’ la..aku tahu ko memang sayang giler kat dia hemm tapi nak buat camne kan..pasrah..

to mr.X2: thanx coz ko selalu jadi orang tengah ek..hehe..ko selalu jadi pendengar yang setia..ko memang baik..hey,aku tak lupanye time aku teman ko amik hadiah kat tv3 dulu..hehe..congrats..dah tunang ko akhirnya ek..

to mr.X3: thanx coz sempat kita kawan ‘baik’ jap..lepas ko frust tu dan aku ingat mulanya lepas kematian ayah ko..sebelum tu kita tak pernah sembang sangat kan tapi lepas tu rancak kita sembang..tapi aku betul2 minta maaf..aku tahu ‘kesilapan’ aku..aku tak tahu la ko memang tersalah hantar mesej tu or memang sengaja tersalah supaya aku tahu ‘keadaan’ ko lepas apa yang aku ‘bagitau’…aku rasa bersalah giler bila ko cakap “lepas ni aku nak focus keje je n nak kumpul duit,kumpul harta,nak beli rumah,perempuan last dalam list”.. akhirnya ko berjaya kan..sekarang ko dah ada ‘family’.. “ooo ni la nomey ek..” sentap aku beb bila wife ko tegur aku cam tu..mesti dia tahu ‘kisah’ aku kan..?..

to mr.X4: thanx coz ko memberikan warna2 la sebagai antara ’sebab’ aku ’senyum’ n berkobar-kobar study..hehe..”malizia..!!”.. hampeh tul ko boleh jerit nama aku cam tu..memang agak tak best la aku rasa kalau tak nampak ko kan..ala aku tahu ko pun tertanya kalau aku takde..haha..hey,aku tau ‘peminat’ ko keliling pinggang kan..sampai ada yang ‘cakap’2 bila ko ngan aku boleh ‘baik’ lak..ahaksss…tp no hal la kan ko ‘adik’..hehe…

to mr.X5: thanx coz jadi satu2nya memori yang aku tak pernah lupa walaupun dah berpuluh tahun..hemm..mane ko sekarang ek?? last aku terima call ko yg aku ingat ko cerita pasal ko clash dgn dia..lepas tu ko tukar no.fon lagi terus senyap..ko tau tak antara sebab aku bersungguh nak masuk kelas 1 dr kelas 2 kan..tapi dah berjaya, 1 hari jer aku sempat rasa coz terpaksa pindah sekolah..hemm then after 10years baru jumpa balik..gempaq la..lain giler..hehe..hey, sorry la coz koyakkan ‘kad’ tu..tapi aku ingat ‘lukisan’ dan ‘ayat’ tu..time budak2 kan blur la aku..tp pas tu baru ada ‘rasa’ tp dah terlambat kan..ahaksss..(ingat tak camne budak kelas ko n kelas aku buat keje giler tolak kita..sengal kan..haha..)

to mr.X6: thanx tak penat2 ‘kejar’..serius aku mintak maaf ape aku ‘buat’..tau la aku budak2 time tu blur la bab2 ni..haha..sorry la takde niat koyak pas tu gi baling keluar bas btl2 depan ko kan..penat aku tukar tempat pun ko ikut gak ek..teruk gak aku dulu kan..‘ignore’ semua orang..hemmm..

to mr.X7: thanx atas ‘persahabatan’ kita tu..ko tahu tak asal dengar kring kring time2 tertentu jer aku tahu takde orang lain la kan..hehe.. “X7 dengan nomey memang dah kenal lama ek?”..ingat tak fasi sound kita coz dia tengok kita macam dah kawan dari kecik padahal baru kenal n kwn beberapa hari jer kan..pas tu aku rasa telefon rumah aku ngan telefon rumah ko berbulu jer layan kita gayut hari2 kan..haha..mmg ko kenal aku coz ko blh perasan maksud email address aku tu..sbb ‘itu’ ke kita jauh pas tu ek..hemm..well,aku dengar citer ko ada ‘gf’ dah kat sana..hehe…

to mr.X8: thanx coz terselit gak la ingatan aku sket pasal ko sebab ‘gelaran’ tu kan..haha..memang sengal..ha,tak pasal2 jer kan..haha..jangan salahkan aku sorg ek,ko pun tempah diri sekali sape suruh..ahaksss…

to mr.X9: thanx coz X9 banyak ajar n tolong nomey..banyak nomey belajar dari X9 gak..of course nomey takkan lupa apa yg ‘berlaku’ semua..hemm..thanx for d ‘friendship’..rasanya muka nomey tahan ‘kebas’ kot sebab tu macam ‘immune’ je kan nampak..ahakssss… baru sedar kan camne ‘kuat’nya nomey ni..haha..ye ye oo jer…

to mr.X10: thanx coz pernah jadi ‘teman’ yang baik..walaupun orang selalu gak ‘makan hati’ kan..haha..biasa la..takpe kalau orang lain ‘anggap’ awak macam2 ke,ala awak tau kan orang kenal awak,orang tahu kisah awak kan so orang doa semoga 1 hari nanti ‘complicated’ side of yourself tu akan terurai k fren..tapi memang awak ‘teliti’ la..hehe..

to mr.X11: thanx coz ko boleh nampak ’soft-side’ aku hanya dengan terbaca ’sms’ tu ek..ishhh..ko tau tak ‘tergezut’ aku bila ko ‘hint’.. tapi sorry sangat aku tahu ko baik tapi ko tahu ‘hati’ aku time tu kan..so sorry la memang aku ‘keras’ sket bab hati..haha..hey, tapi aku tahu ko mesti jumpa yang terbaik untuk ko kan..:)

to mr.X12: thanx coz ko antara kawan yang ‘close’ dengan aku kan..thanx coz ’share’ kisah ko dengan aku dan ko memang baik la walaupun orang kadang2 anggap ko sinis or garang kan tapi aku tahu ko macam mane..hehe..(ingat tak camne ko buat aku nangis dengar cerita ko..:(..) hey,aku nak ko tahu aku hargai sangat ‘persahabatan’ kita k..kita masing2 ‘tahu’..cukup la kan..ahaksss..

to mr.X13: thanx coz emm ape ek?..haha..sorry la beb, saya suka tengok family awak semua memang nampak best tapi ada something saya takleh ‘masuk’ la ngan awak..sorry..’conversation is more important,remember..’ ..tu saya ‘cari’..

to mr.X14: thanx coz seriously ko memang kawan yang paling baik la..aku rasa semua orang akui hakikat tu kan..hemm.. ko takde ‘melencong’ ke lain kan?kan..hehe..ok la aku mengaku hati aku memang agak ‘keras’ sket..memang aku ‘degil’ sket bab ‘itu’..hemm.. well,ko tersangat la baik so aku doakan yang terbaik la k..mesti ada yg ‘perasan’..don’t worry..

to mr.X15 & mr.X16: thanx coz korang berdua ni la tempat aku sembang bab kerja kan..hehe..sorry beb selalu susahkan korang kan.. takpe aku mesti belanja korang lagi..aku tak lupanya jasa korang k.. mr.X15 sorry kat gf ko sebab kadang aku curi masa ko kan..hehe.. mr.X16 pun kalau ko dah ada gf pun ko terangkan kat dia mesti dia tak jeles kan kalau setakat aku ni kan..ahakssss…

to mr.X17: thanxxxxx coz ada bagi musim ’salji’,'bunga’,'luruh’,'panas’ dalam hidup ni..fuhhhh..memang sengaja letak pada 17 coz dat is my favourite no. ..too many things i wanna write about u..can i just put this..‘never ending story’..yaa..1 day if u find d ending then let me know n i will change it here…;D anyway, thanx 4 everything..i really appreciate your existence in my Life movie theater..

to mr.X18: thanx coz ko la kawan yang aku boleh bercakap ‘bab’2 sentap tu tanpa rasa segan n boleh open coz aku tahu aku boleh percaya ko dan ko tak ‘keras’ sangat..even kalau ko bagi ‘cili’ pun mesti ko dah siapkan berbalang air jugak kan so takde la ‘terasa’ sangat kan..hehe..ko jugak la kadang mengingatkan ke jalan ‘lurus’..hehe…

to mr.X19: thanx coz kadang mengingatkan dengan sms2 dan ‘ayat’ membimbing tu..hemm..congrats akhirnya kawin jugak ko kan setelah ‘episod’ ko yg sentap gak kan…hehe…

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alamak terpanjang lak..ok la berhenti la merepek jer kan..hahaha.. ;P

 

Boleh buat you Ketawa..??!!..

Previous episode:

Rayyan: So..are you okay??

Mia: OK.

Rayyan: Your fiancee, okay?

Mia: Rayyan!! i nak kena pergi. So, you tak payah nak pura-pura kat sini yang you caring sangat pasal i eh!! sebenarnya you tak kisah pun!!….mmm i’m sorry, i have to go..

After that:

Mia: i tak ada pilihan..

Rayyan: How can you marry him la.!?.he’s old, he’s buncit, rambut dah nak botak dah..!?..

Mia: Ehh..mana ade dia botak..?! buncit..?!..

Rayyan: Yaa..20 years from now..!?..:p

Mia: You pun buncit..!..:p

Rayyan: Dah taste you lelaki buncit macam i..nak buat macam mane..?!..;P

Mia: ;D..:)..hehe..

Rayyan: ..aa..you see..you see..macam mana you boleh tak nak dengan lelaki yang boleh buat you ketawa macam ni..?!..Mia..apa yang i kena buat lagi..?? i tak boleh tengok you kahwin dengan lelaki lain..

Mia: You kahwin la dengan Bella..:P

Rayyan: Mia..Bella tu sihat walafiat..tapi..kenapa i dengan you..?!..kenapa i di sini..?!..

Mia: Huhh..Rayyan..i takut..

Rayyan: I janji i tak akan patahkan hati you lagi..i akan jaga you dengan baik..

Mia: Kalau you cakap semua ni..dulu..mungkin i boleh pertimbangkan..tapi..it’s just too late…

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hehe..beb..ada ’statement’ yang aku suka..hahaha.. ;P

hemm..aku tak ikut sangat cerita Bella cuma kadang2 free aku layan gak tapi mostly aku lebih suka nak dengar dialog scene Mia & Rayyan..;D suka hati la beb, nak kata aku ape2 ke kan..haha..aku tahu korang pun kadang2 ’suka’ gak tapi simpan dalam hati jer tak nak mengaku lepas tu ada gak yang buat2 macam tak amik kisah padahal dalam hati sentap tapi buat ‘keras’ kan..kan..ala no hal la beb, lantak la diri masing2 kan…ahakssss..

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nanti kalau aku ‘care’ pasal korang, rasa ‘rimas’ plak kan..‘degil’..siapa la ‘aku’ ni kan..hahaha.. sengalll beb, sorry la.. mood nak balik kampung kan…ahakssss…;P actually aku ni yang ‘degil’ gak kot..:)

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aku nak letak sms dr my sis..hehe..:

“kadang2 kita tak sedar..

orang yang kita tak peduli,

sayang giler kat kita..

kadang2 kita tak sedar..

kita terlampau sayang kat orang tu,

sedangkan dia selalu sakitkan hati kita..

dan kita tak pernah sedar..

kita bukannya sempurna untuk mendapatkan orang yang sangat2 sempurna dalam hidup kita..

dan kita bukannya sape2

untuk buat orang tu menyayangi kita

macam kita sayang kat dia..

sebab kita cuma manusia biasa..”

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p/s: sis, doa yg u bagi nanti i masukkan kat entry lain lak..hehe..;)